Sin by Silence

Last week, while running around and taking care of my Grandson I passed by the TV  in a huge rush to get some more running around done, a Documentary was on, I had missed most of it but what I did catch was appalling. The documentary was called "Sin By Silence", about Domestic Violence and the women that have suffered the ultimate repercussions of this. They were older women in prison for killing their abusers. With in seconds of watching this show literally brought me to tears. All of the pain, the terror, the hurt, and the memories came flooding back in such volume that I really didn't know what to do at the time but stand there in front of the TV crying.

This could have been me, in prison, with no one to listen to me, to be just thrown away like a piece of trash for simply tryin to survive. I am a SURVIVOR of domestic violence, my ex- husband beat the hell out of me, he raped me and verbally abused me everyday from the time I was barely 14 until I was 18. Those almost 5 years were the worst of my life and I really don't know how I am still alive to write this now. The worst part, EVERYONE knew he was doing this to me and NO ONE did a damn thing about it. My parents didn't do anything, the police, Dr's that put my broken bones back together, everyone knew and no one did anything until my Dad just couldn't ignore the situation any longer and he is the one that made the phone call to my ex-husbands Chaplain with his unit in the Army. Yes, my ex-husband was in the Army, and yes, the Army knew he was doing this to me also, and nothing was done on their part either. At the time I left my ex-husband, I had 2 small children one was barely 3 and the other was not even a month old yet, I had nothing, I took nothing with me except for my children. The feeling of fear and loniless that I felt walking out that door, I will never EVER forget. I was 1900 miles from home and I was determined to not show up at my Mom or Dad's door and admit defeat no matter how many permanent bone fractures I had, no matter how many times my ex-husband found me and stalked me. I was determined to make it! By no means have I made "it" but so far I have accomplished what I set out to do.

To hear these women talk about their experiences with their survival process brought so many painful memories back that I just couldn't ignore it any longer I had to take action. I found the "Sins By Silence" FB page and signed the petition for lawmakers to take notice that YES, there are ppl out there that do deserve to be in prison, but we REALLY need to stop and take notice that there are women out there that DO NOT deserve to be treated like this and DO NOT deserve to be put in prison for defending themselves. It's complete and utter bullshit. I went to the FB page and that gave me a link to sign a petition, I signed, but for me that was not good enough....after thinking about this FOR DAYS, I am going to write those women in prison and let them know that they are not alone, there are ppl out here that are behind them and think about how that could have been me sitting in that cell and how I would want ANYONE to support me.

I will get back to more details about my story a little later but if you would like to join in the fight against Domestic Violence please feel free to comment on this or contact me and I will give you more details! Thanks for reading...until next time!